UJuan Ramón Jiménez wayeneminyaka eli-19 ubudala ukufa kukayise. Ukususela ngelo xesha kuye kwavezwa ingxaki awayengasoze aphinde aphile kuyo. Wayengumntu owayenovelwano ngokugqithisileyo imihla ngemihla eyayisithi phithi kukoyika ukufa. Kwakungekho kuphumla, ulungelelwaniso ngalunye olungelulo lwaluvakala njengesoyikiso, ngalinye lifana nesalathiso sentlekele enkulu. Xa weza kuhlala eMadrid okwesihlandlo sesibini, wacela uRamón Gómez de la Serna ukuba amfumanele indawo yokuhlala kufuphi nesibhedlele. Ukusuka kumzalwana wakhe siyazi ukuba ngamanye amaxesha wabethelela ucango kwiijambs zesakhelo ukuze ukufa kungangeni, kwaye kwi-'Intimate Diary' yakhe sineendaba zazo zonke izifo ze-psychomatization: i-cramps ye-muscle, isiyezi, ukugabha, ukudinwa. Kangangexesha elithile, wayebambe igaqa leswekile epokothweni yakhe kuba wayekholelwa ukuba ukungabikho kweglucose kwakuya kumenza ‘othuke’ aze abulawe. Wabanga ukuba unesifo sentliziyo waza wanyangwa nge-opium, i-bromide kunye ne-sparteine. Amandla ayingozi Kodwa ngaphaya kwale theatre ye-hypochondria kunye ne-neurosis kufuneka sibone uJuan Ramón njengoko sibona uHölderlin, uKleist, uLeopardi, uNietzsche okanye uPessoa, njengoko oko kuphoswa kwintlungu, elawulwa ngamandla ayingozi adlulayo. Inkxalabo yakhe, impambano yakhe kukuba wayesoloko esoyika ukungafezeki kobomi kunye nobukhulu bokufa, kuba wayebone nge-3 kaJulayi ngo-1900 ukuba yonke into yayibuthathaka kangakanani, isuntswana nje lesanti ukuba i-Venezuelan yasuka kumda. kamva. Siyazi ukuba ngamanye amaxesha wabethelela ucango kwiijam zesakhelo ukuze ukufa kungangeni 'El mal de Juan Ramón', ngoko ke, lowo uvakalelwa kukuba ubomi bakhe bonke bunokuwa kangakanani na okwesibini okuzayo. , kwaye ukuthambekela kwakhe kunye ne-neurasthenia yakhe iyazi ukuba inani lakhe libuthathaka kangangokuba linokujika ngokukhawuleza libe luthuthu olugcwele isandla. Noko ke, uJuan Ramón, ngulowo ujonga eli ngxondorha aze oyike, lowo ucinga ngendlela inzonzobila ezama ngayo ukulibhangisa aze afune ukuzisindisa. Ayikalungiswa ngokufanelekileyo ukuba wonke umsebenzi wakhe uqala kuloo ntlekele, yakhiwe kuloo bubi. Indoda ecinga ngonina kwaye yoyika ukuya kumbona eMoguer ngenxa yokuba inokubhubha phakathi kolo hambo, yakwazi ukwenza imibongo ibe yinto yokwenene, indawo yokusabela ngokuchasene nezinto kunye nobuthathaka bokuba sehlabathini. . . Ubume bomsebenzi wakhe bufuna ukumkhupha kuwo aze acamngce ngawo. Apho izinto zakhe ezicingisisiweyo, ubuhle bezinto kunye nelo halo likanaphakade elingaphaya kokuphela kwalo. Kukulungele ukumbona esilwa ukwenza umhlaba ube yindawo ephezulu, ukwenza iimvakalelo kunye nokucinga isenzo sobugorha ngaphaya komngxuma wakhe. Ngalo lonke ixesha esengxakini, ehlala ekwicala lokuwa, ehlala engazinzanga, akazange enze igama libe yintlungu kodwa ukukhangela ukunciphisa, ukudlula intlungu ngokwayo. Uvalelwe kwihlazo elinjalo Ukujongana noMoguer owayemgculela, uJuan Ramón wabalekela esibhakabhakeni esizele ziinkwenkwezi kunye nedonki elihlwempuzekileyo; phambi kweMadrid ezo zimbongi ezincinci zeza ukulwa naye ngobundlobongela kunye nokudelela, wahlala yedwa, ekude, eyazi ukuba wayehlukene; Ejongene nelizwe emfazweni, uJuan Ramón ogula nguye uhamba nesongo seRed Cross enika abantwana indawo yokuhlala kwaye abondla ngemali yakhe. "Kukho umyalelo omnye kuphela kuwe, uhlambuluke", wabhala u-Nietzsche kunye nokuphazamiseka kwangaphakathi kobomi bakhe, kuzo zonke iindlela zokubandezeleka kuloo moya, ngenxa yobuthathaka bengqondo yakhe, uJuan Ramón wenza i-biography yakhe kunye noncwadi lwakhe. ngephanyazo lokomelela ngokokuziphatha, isihlandlo apho umntu abekwe kwindawo ephakamileyo yehlabathi. Isihobe sakhe sisoloko sileqa ukhanyiso, umkhondo wobuThixo obukumntu ngamnye, okukuye. Ukuyifunda kuyasixolelanisa, siyathuthuzeleka ngamazwi akhe kuba siyazi ukuba bazalwa yiloo mpixano, loo ntikelo phambi koloyiko lokuyeka. Yiyo loo nto isibongo sakhe sisichasi sokufa, yingqokelela yezinto eziyinyani, indlela yokwandisa ubomi, ukukhulisa ulwazi lwezinto, kakhulu. Waphila iminyaka engamashumi asixhenxe anesixhenxe. Ngandlela-thile, loo nkohliso ibizwa ngokuba yimibongo yamphilisa, isihobe kuye yayiyindlela yokuthatha indawo yeemvakalelo, yeemvakalelo, indlela yokudala isimilo esinokuphila ubomi ngobumbongi. Kuya kufuneka ube nomfanekiso wakhe kwimizuzu yakhe yokugqibela, elubhacweni ePuerto Rico, edlamkile.
